Usually on Mondays I go into the studio and take an intense ballet class. Today I decided to skip it.
This is a huge decision for me and one that unfortunately gets filled with some guilt.
If you are a dancer or workout regularly, you know how hard it is to take time off and give yourself some recovery time – whether active recovery or not.
With dancing in particular, it is hard on the body to take the time off, but today’s decision was driven on a mental break vs. a physical one. If I can’t be in dance class in my entirety (mental and physical), I know I shouldn’t go.
I didn’t sleep well last night knowing I had to make a decision that in the past would have been an easy one. I find it difficult to say no to helping someone, unless I know for sure that this person would not be a good fit.
I am making new decisions this year based on what my body and mind can handle, whereas previously it would have been just my mind. This is helping me to preserve myself for continuing to do what I love to do.
As I get older, I am finding I am more busy with scheduling my days between work, my passions, appointments. It almost feels like being back in the sandwich generation where you have both your family issues to take care of as well as those of your parents. Not sure how we all survive that, but we are resilient humans.
Covid was a great time for me to learn how to slow down. I truly needed that, but somehow things seem to be ramping up again even as I progress forward on projects/issues I need to deal with or have completed. There always seems to be more around the corner.
I recently went to a Graham Nash concert. Now of the 3, or 4 depending on who you think is actually part of the group, Nash was my least favorite. But I hesitated in seeing David Crosby’s last concert and then he passed away.
I was told what he would be singing and decided we needed to go ( so I also don’t get those regrets returning). Somehow the concert made me see the life I led and continue to lead and I have no regrets. I was grateful and thankful for what I have accomplished and what I did and continue to do in my life.
I am thankful/grateful for the health I have worked so hard to achieve, what I have done for others, and for being able to follow through with my passions, and raising my family to be independent thinkers and follow their dreams/aspirations.
So what I am trying to say as I ramble on with my thoughts, is give yourself a break, whether it be mindful or physical or both. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Things usually have a way of stil resolving that suits you.
But if you just don’t seem to be getting over that physical issue, or just had enough it, contact me so we can see how I can help you progress forward. Sometimes you just need “a little help from a friend”. Click here for a Free 20 minute Discovery call.
